Sometimes I’m lazy, other times; it’s hard to be productive because everything is just unnecessarily difficult. I long for the days where life is simple and my most pressing problem is what charity I want to donate to or deciding who I want to cast as the lead in my movie.
Honestly, I really don’t mind if things are hard, what I can’t tolerate though is boring problems. The problems I deal with right now are not encouraging at all, they’re such unadventurous problems. In the midst of this pandemic, how is it that I’m most worried about not having a laptop to edit videos, I’m not worried about dying a virgin or never being able to fulfill my dreams. Heck I’m not even worried about the virus, but I‘m here panicking because I can’t edit. I’d like to have tear-jerking problems or rich people problems, I’ve decided that my life must either be a telenovela or a reality show; there really is no place for mediocrity in my world.
In life I don’t think we can ever be truly free of hardship, but what I’d like to know is why I don’t get to choose my own problems. I promise if God allowed me to choose my problems I’d make it worthwhile, my problems would be fun and exhilarating, I won’t choose boring, and mundane stuff like contemplating whether or not to get a Masters degree. I’d be out here figuring out whether Marcus Rashford or Tomi O was the man for me (they’d both be in love with me obviously, irl they’re not)
Believe me if my problems included deciding what to say whilst accepting my well-deserved Oscar or choosing between cutting off my bestfriend for moving to my sister’s baby daddy or sticking with said friend, I’d be thrilled.
However, over the past couple of years I’ve been told that the grass is always greener on the other side. I don’t believe any of that bull because there’s no way you can convince me that Beyonce would look at my life and say “Damn I wish my biggest problem in life is deciding whether or not to use my last 2000 naira to buy food”
The Making 